My Ida Emma

Varför ska kärlek göra så ont??
Varför kan jag aldrig få vara lycklig??
Varför måste allt kännas så hemskt??
Varför??
Varför??

Jag förstår inte, verkligen ingenting.
Jag är så förvirrad att jag inte ens vet själv vad jag känner, jag är så förvirrad att jag inte vet vad jag sk ta mig till. Jag har ingen aning om vad jag ska göra eller hur jag ska göra det. 

Jag har väntat en evighet på att känna dessa känslor för någon och när det händer så blir det ändå så fel. Jag är bara så förtvivlad, helt hjälplös.

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry??


Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night??


Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right??


Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad??

You'd do anything to make them understand??


Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same??


Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say??


And you don't know where to start??


Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you??


Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there??


And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep

Bryan Adams måste vara min favorit bland levande artister, reallylove him

To really love a woman
To understand her - you gotta know it deep inside
Hear every thought - see every dream
N' give her wings - when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman you tell her
that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
she needs somebody to tell her
that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
- really really ever loved a woman?

To really love a woman
Let her hold you -
til ya know how she needs to be touched
You've gotta breathe her - really taste her
Til you can feel her in your blood
N' when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
you tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
she needs somebody to tell her
that you'll always be together
So tell me have you ever really -
really really ever loved a woman?

You got to give her some faith - hold her tight
A little tenderness - gotta treat her right
She will be there for you, takin' good care of you
Ya really gotta love your woman...

Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman
When you love a woman you tell her
that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
she needs somebody to tell her
that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
- really really ever loved a woman?

Just tell me have you ever really,
really, really, ever loved a woman? You got to tell me
Just tell me have you ever really,
really, really, ever loved a woman?

Jag vet inte vad som håller på att hända med mig, jag tvinar sakta bort. Gick igenom balbilderna och såg hur löst min klänning satt, så igår hos lovisa så tog jag fram vågen, 43.5 kg. Jag försvinner snart. Jag kommer inte ihåg senaste gången jag kunde äta ordentligt utan att må illa. Den senaste veckan har varit den värsta i mitt liv, jag har inte ätit nånting på hela veckan som har gett mig energi, kan endast dricka saft om ens det. För varje minut blir det bara värre och värre, jag vet inte om jag kommer ta mig ur detta utan drastiska åtgärder.